Reasons why my life sucks:

+College shit: Fucking local women’s college.

-I have no major,  and plenty of student loans.

-I am stuck at the college I’m at, and it still kinda sucks,  espeically for something so expensive,   and better yet for somewhere which so many of my “young adult” years will be spent at.

+Job shit: My retail dreams have come true, I work at the ultimate hipster location. 

-They play about 5 songs over and over.

-The clothing loses appeal because I see it all of the time.

-I’m at the “top” and I’m still not happy. Awesome.

+Love shit: I realize I do not know anything about love or labels or lust.

-Straight, gay, bi-sexual. No idea.

-The only inclination to any romantic feelings I posses are for an ex, who is more awkward than me,  thus more confusion. Sweet.

+Friend shit: I have 3 friends.

-One of them has grandkids.

-I have lost the ability to make any more.

+Social shit: N/A

-I forget how to talk to people.

-Plus I forget what free time feels like.

+Body shit: Getting older sucks.

-I have no time to go to the gym/workout.

-My face looks like a model for a 15 year old ginger boy known as “pizza face” on a random cartoon.

+Other shit: Where I want to be verus where I am?
<—Lots of space and time and years and courage and confidence and organization and love and acceptance and forgiveness and knowledge—>

-I want to travel, meet cool people, take pictures, feel pretty.

-I have no skills whatsoever, no music, juggling, jewelry making, hair cutting, picture taking, sweater knitting, anythinganythinganything at all.

I cannot figure out how to let go and learn. How to improve any of these conditions.