College, college is.. a small change. The same patterns, thoughts, people with different names and faces. For the most part that is.

Staying true to my lovestorybrain that’s the only thing worth writing about here. It’s often easy to know who you don’t want. But what to do with the people you do want? In my experience you need to act like you’ve had it in order to get it. The only way to get something is to go for it. But what to want? How to get to the point of getting? Why is unattainable an attractive trait? What evolved in me emotionally to desire something risky and unsafe rather than someone who would do whatever I asked? By now I know the answers to most of the questions, to an acceptable extent. The best decisions are the ones that aren’t over thought. There are little things that pop into your head, the jackass responses or the sweet as hell comebacks, the things we don’t usually do or say because they’re too blunt. My goal is to go for those moments, to be the person who isn’t afraid to speak their mind. Life can get so boring, instead of partying all of the time and trying to forgot who I am. I want to try to create situations that I actually am interested in, that I want to be a part of. I am so sick of being boring and tired. Someone has to be that girl who’s bold and out there, instead of trying to constantly date them. Why not become one? I want intensity. I want passion. I want fun.